Newfoundland. Total other province. Holy shit.
Yeah so today Shawn came to my house while I packed and stuff .. To go to camp tomorow .. Which reminds me, I won't be on here for a week because I'll be at camp, and on the way home me and my mom started talking about next year. See next year, I'm supposed to be a C.I.T. (Counselour in training), and I told mom that and she said I might not be going to camp next year. Well me being me I just said of course I will and then she decides to spring on me that I might be moving to Newfoundland. NEWFOUNDLAND. FUCK. She can't do that to me. I know, I'm being selfish, and I feel bad. Apparantly she applied for a job down there at a college, and for the first time in my life, we wouldn't be poor. It would be nice to have money, but all my friends are here. I've lived in this general area my whole life. Everyone I know is here, and Shawn is here. Shawn. That would be the worst. Leaving the love of my life behind. Jesus, I mean I'm crying right now about going to camp for a week and missing him. What about not seeing him like ever. I can't afford to fly down and see him and it's a two day drive to get here from there. I don't think I could take it. I'm way too shy to make all new friends. And too add to that, I have a fear of being alone. Just great eh? My mom says she doesn't think she'll get the job, but who knows? She said that me and Shawn would never last, and that I wouldn't go to camp this year, and that we wouldn't move so far out of town, and all of those things happen. I can't take this, I really can't.