Riight, so sorry to the whole two people who read this for neglecting it. Lately I've just been grumpy again. Pretty much, the growths are back. We really thought they were gone. We even waited for a while before making it official, and as soon as I think I'm fine, I'm in pain again. After the little bit I did in PAL today my legs hurt a lot. I can feel where they're going to come back in, and then by the end of the day carrying around my huge bookbag my right one hurt so much I could almost cry. I'm getting sick of this. I had to start pain killers again the other day. They're not really agreeing with me, I mean I don't like being on so many, they don't really mix well. Really, between scholarship junk, the death sickness, and calculus, I'm starting to get lost in myself, and with how bad my legs are getting, I'm starting to get more worried everyday. It's got to be something serious by now. I'm actually terrified that I'm going to get sick and in the hospital or die. Die. That sounds so scary. If I have to go to one more hospital I might just give up. I'm not even kidding. I'm sick of it. I can't deal with all the fucking stress of being sick anymore. Like seriously, Note to Kaitlyn's body : TELL HER IF YOU'RE DYING ALREADY!!!