Yesterday, my favorite uncle got married. It went really well as far the wedding itself goes. They had it in their back yard, fairly low key and inexpensive, but hey, it was still one of the most beautiful weddings I've been to. Pretty much my whole family from my father's side was there, and I thought I was happy to see them, until the reception.
See, we got there only in time to get changed, have pictures, and get seated for the wedding, so there wasn't exactly any discussion time until afterwards, however, as soon as the wedding was over, the first thing out of my uncle's Glen's mouth was "So, are you excited to start studying to be a minister?". Haha, yeah, about that, I never really got to tell these guys the fact that I'm not going to anymore. Apparently, the whole family had their sights set on me being a minister, and I'm now a family outcast to everyone, except the uncle who got married, just because he couldn't care less. The thing that really bugs me, is my aunt from Newfoundland. We were always really close, and she was always so cool about everything, and her son is gay so I knew I was safe around her. Apparently not anymore. She's disappointed that I changed my mind. She cancelled her visit to see me and all this junk now, but you know what? I don't care. I was thinking about it for a whole last night, right after it all happened, and none of their opinions matter.
At the beginning of this year, I had said that for my graduating year, I was gonna be myself, and not care what anyone else said. I was sick and tired of the lies, and the hiding, and worrying about what the rest of the world thought of me. I was thinking the last few days, did I actually accomplish that? I made a few huge steps, coming out, ditching some people who I desperately needed to be rid of, told my mom to get the hell over herself, it seems like I did a lot, but when I think about it, I'm not sure how many people actually know the real me. Sure, I did a good job this year of being more like myself, but I can still think of things I did that are really not me. While debating whether or not I should have done things differently, I came to this conclusion. The year went by really quickly, and a lot of things changed. When I think of friendships gained and lost, I have no regrets. I made a couple new friends this year, strengthened bonds with others, and opened myself up to some people I would never have thought would have been as cool as they are. On the other hand, I lost a few friends, made a few enemies, and regrettably even hurt a few people, whether they deserved it or not. Thinking it over, I wouldn't have it any other way. The year was a hard one, that's for sure, but it was completely worth it in the end. We all had our difficult times, when we thought we were totally off track, or that as friends we were falling apart, but you know what? We kept it all together, survived grade 12, and it's over.
Overall, I'm happy with the way my high school years turned out. Everything I've been through has either been wonderful, or just made me stronger. I couldn't ask for better times, with better friends if I wanted to. Next year, when I've moved onto new places, there will be a lot of people I miss. Some people I knew I would, some people I never would have dreamed I'd miss, and some people, well let's just say I'm glad they're staying here. I guess all I've got to say is thanks. Thanks to those who supported me,and those who didn't. Thanks to those who helped me, and those whose insults only made me stronger, like it or not, you've helped me be who I am today ..