How Bloody-Fucking-Wonderful ..I really don't think I can handle this again .. Too many fucking roller coaster feelings .. Happy one minute .. Depressed the next .. WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME :'o(
Blah. That's about all I have to say right now. I'm so freaking bored and pissed off. This is just not a good week. Jonathan is ignoring me again .. And it sucks. He stopped calling me and talking to me .. . I kinda put myself into that though. I knew it was gonna happen. He did it last time too. But it's just that .. He's him .. And I always missed him. He always made me feel better. Gah .. I really need to straighten that out .. Also .. There's nothing to do around here anymore besides NEW YORK IN TWO DAYS. That's about all I have to look forward to right now. I never get to go anywhere here anymore. I don't have friends to do anything with. It really sucks. Even I'm starting to hate Amherst .. And I was always the one who wanted to stay here. I wanna live in Halifax with my friends .. Like Jen and Barb and little big guy and everyone else. . PEI even would be nice. At least maybe if I could see Jonathan I could figure this stuff out. You know it's bad when I wanna go to a city. I hate cities .. But I just wanna go somewhere where anyone can be accepted. Nothing is accpeted around here. You either fit into the lines or that's it. And I don't fit in those lines. I can't be me around here. Really .. The only time I've felt like I was being me in the last like 4 years was last weekend with Jonathan. Damnit. Everything comes back to him. It's like The world hates me right now and all they want to see is me go back to being the pathetic little depressed girl again .. Fuck it ..
*I'm so sorry If I'm alienating some of you .. But your whole fucking culture alienates me .. *
Gah .. Sick ..This sucks. I feel miserable. I hate being sick .. AGAIN .. Guys .. Honest question .. How often do you guys see me healthy? I'm always so damn sick .. What the hell is wrong with me?
Anyways .. Yeah .. Missed school today .. And I can't afford to miss anymore with the New York trip coming up .. And then Ontario right after that .. And yeah .. I'm doing bad enough as it is. So who wants to catch me up tomorow on what I missed, and what the hell is on the math quiz????
What The Hell Have I Been Up To ..Wow .. Guys I'm sorry .. I did it again. And that last entry .. It was Christie's fault .. I swear .. She started it .. Stupid quizes .. I just didn't wanna lose the answer:) (Or the picture for that matter ;)).
Sorry for acting weird as of late too guys. Ever since this school year started I've been down a lot and never really feel like myself .. I'm workin' on it .. Hopefully with "him" gone I can start to get a bit better .. Get a life of my own and shit like that. Gotta stop this depressed mood.
Got back from synod today. Sum up of my time .. Met up with Ex from PEI .. Realized I miss ex .. Ex says he misses me (Says .. ) .. Get drunk .. Spend night in ex's room cuz my room is full of old people (Get rid of the dirty minds .. Ex up puking all night) .. Get 4 hours sleep .. Get up .. **Go to "meetings" for like 5 minutes .. Leave with ex .. ** Repeat from ** to ** a few times .. Supper .. Drunk .. A lot of pizza .. Once again .. Stay in ex's room to escape old gay guys! .. Stay up till 5:30 .. get up at 6:30 .. Repeat ** to ** once again .. Lunch .. Pack .. Eucharist .. Leave ex :(. Needless to say I guess it's obvious I missed him. And still do .. Who wants to move to PEI with me? :)
CSI GREG GO BOOM .. AHHHHHHHHH
You're Greg Sanders! Young, joker, brilliant.
Sometimes people tend to not take you seriously
because you're young and goof off but that's
ok; you prove them wrong in the end. You have a
multitude of hobbies and even though it's the
5th season, you're still looking for a date.
Hang in there!
Random Greg Fact: Greg has a quite extensive coin
collection
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Kaitlyn says: But he's allllll mine!! Birthday in two days!
