Blah .. Once again .. I'm just blah. I just can't shake this feeling that I need something new to happen. All summer I've been basically sitting in my houses by myself watching TV, or playing computer games. My cousin's wedding went alright .. Getting hammered with my dad all weekend .. But the once I got home I went back to this again. Nothing can keep me happy for more than a day. I just .. Blah. Plus, I'm like lashing out at everyone. My parents are getting pretty pissed at me too .. I'm always so moody and I freak out at every little thing that goes wrong. And I have to stop eating. I just keep on gaining weight over all this. I need to get out and about. I can't wait till I can get to University in Newfoundland (If I can even get in cuz my grades and going downhill fast). But I dunno .. Sleeping all day and atching TV is just not good enough. I never wanna go anywhere with anyone or anything .. I just can't get myself motivated .. Can't sleep at night and can't stop freaking out. And it's officially over between me and Jon who spent the whole day confessing his love for another person to me the other day .. Until realizing who he was tlaking to and blocking me. So yeah .. I'm pretty sure this is the end to everything ..