Stressed And Mad And .. GUHBad day. I gotta just not freak out. My fish died today :(. He was so cute. And I had to go to the doctor again .. And my friend basically threatened to kill himself .. And I'm so confused .. Guys what am I gonna do with myself. Lately I've just gotten myself so stressed out that all my "diseases" are having flare-ups. I was up for the last two night with acid reflux and stomach pains from stressing myself out so much. I just don't know what I wanna do anymore, or what to believe, or who to listen to .. I need a lot of time to myself to figure all of this out .. and I just don't have the time. Guh. If I'm not in school for a few days don't worry, maybe I'll have everything figured out by the time I get back ..
I Don't Like Doors ..I can't believe I ran into a door lol. You guys would ahve cracked up yesterday if you saw the door at work hit me .. Especially you Christie .. You would have been the one to fall on the floor laughing! Well my head hurt all day because of that .. So it was off to a bad start. I almost passed out in pre-cal too. That'll teach me to sleep in and not get breakfast :oS. Oh yeah .. By the way .. My mom gave me all her calculus stuff from university .. I'm screwed lol .. But you guys would probably like to know that this is exactly what she did all in university basically so if you can do pre-cal/cal here you'll do good next year! And I think I'm finally caught up in everything except for precal .. Which is good .. All my tests/quizes are written .. Now as long as the dermatologist on Thursday doesn't send me to a hospital I shouldn't miss too much more! Anyways .. I'm exhausted and frustrated as hell .. So I'm gonna go take some tylenol 3's and pass out now ..
Les Grrr ..Grr .. I hate French tests .. And all tests for that matter .. I can't deal with them at all. I actually tried to go to school today guys. I really did. I just didn't last long, but you wouldn't either if you took 10 minutes to get up the stairs. That was just the end of that. I'll be late for school tomorrow just so you guys know. I gotta see another doctor in another damn hospital. I wish people could just agree on what is wrong with me. I really wanna get back into school as nerdy as it sounds. I never see anyone outside of school cuz you're either working .. or live too far away! Hopefully I can get back to you guys soon. I'm starting to feel really lonely and it just makes the day so boring to be here alone all day or in hospitals with my parents. Hopefully they can just give me some painkillers or crutches or really .. anything to get me back. I don't even wanna think of how far behind in pre-cal I am. I was already behind when all this started. I'm also not looking forward to this whole dermatologist/biopsy thing. I hate needles in case no one noticed lol, and this just means that there will be many more.
Also, I'm gonna freak out at my parents soon. If I get nagged one more time to clean my room, or get told that I'm in the way and I have to move than that's it. Everything I do my mom yells at me cuz I did it wrong or something, and everywhere I go in the house I'm in the way. Not to mention the other day I think she got into my freakin' MSN conversations! I forget to lock my MSN once and my little brother finds conversations about things like me beign drunk .. Or things that Robbie has said to me while he was drunk .. I didn't even wanna hear that stuff .. Not to mention conversations between me and Sam or me and Elaina. I'm pretty sure that if they didn't believe that I'm bi before .. They believe now. Anyways .. I gotta go cuz my mom is once again freaking out. Hopefully I'll see you guys after doctors tomorrow!
Oh The Horrors ..Guh. I hate hospitals. I really do. Too many needles and machines .. And they smell funny too! If I have to go to any more hospitals I'm gonna freak out. I can finally type now without the damn IV in my hand. That was just wonderful. And of course that didn't work. So my mom decides to drag me to the IWK .. they sent me up to the QEII and they think they know what it is .. But not really. Guh. And then I lost my waterbottle and Jesus fish in Halifax :o(. I'm really upset about that. Bah Hum Bug on Halifax. Anyways .. I gotta go try to clean something up before my mom has a spaz attack!
Very Not Cool ..Gah. I'm too upset to actually update right now .. But I wanted to put this up ..
Gacked from Mallory :).If you woke up and I was in bed with you, what would be your first thought?
Comment me with your answers guys! .. Come on .. Don't wimp out on me ..
