Moved In ..So we finally got moved into our new house this weekend. I officially live in town now. I haven't spent more than like a few hours there though. I spent all week with Karly :). Yay for Karly getting me out of having to help move:). Anyways .. School's rough this year. I can't handle everything that I've got going on. I have to work way too often to get my school work done well and I need the good grades to get into university. It's stupid that I have to keep working. Bah. Plus I;m so stressed out and depressed about everything lately. Some things more than most but you all know enough about that .. Anyways .. Just an update for you guys .. If you even read it lol ..
*There's only so much that I can do to make you notice me .. *
Classes For Grade 12Well here's my classes guys :
Homeroom is G.
Semester 1
Biology 12 Section 3 (Gray)
Chemistry 12 Section 2 (Dewar)
Ext. French 12 Section 1 (G)
Pre-Cal 12 Section 2 (Collins)
Semester 2
Adv. English 12 Section 1 (Gauthier)
Calculus 12 Section 1 (Collins)
Carriere de vie 11 Section 1 (G)
Physics 12 Section 1 (Morris)
Styles De Vie Active 11 Section 1 (G)
Well ..Mmhmm .. I've kinda put this to the side again I guess .. I officially have no life to write about! Anyways .. no one's missed much by my not updating .. All I did all summer was work, work and more work. and doctors appointments as usual. He's got my drugs all messed up again and today he gave me a new one. I am now officially diagnosed with a NEW medical problem. Restless Leg Syndrome. How fun. Basically I can't sleep at night cuz my legs keep kicking and twitching. And I guess .. That this drug is apparantly really addictive and kinda dangerous if I'm not careful o_0. Read this :
My latest attempt to solve my FF/FB led me to clonazepam. I took .5mg 3-4 days a week (as needed). The drug turned on me big time after about 6 months - I was tired all the time, had no short term memory, no concentration, weird muscle aches, got even more socially phobic, and I started losing my hair in clumps. Time to come of the drug and make everything better, right? Wrong. Coming off this drug caused all my symptoms to worsen, and I'm now in protracted withdrawal. These days I have actual panic attacks, countless bizarre nuerological problems (way too many to list), terrible insomnia, paranoia, crippling anxiety, and worst of all ... severe cognitive problems. I can barely read, understand television, and I can no longer drive a car.I know I sound dramatic, but my life is now a living nightmare as a result of clonazepam. I'd hate to see someone go down the exact same road I did. Only now in hindsight can I see that I took for granted all the good things I had to offer despite my FF/FB and social anxiety. I was highly intelligent, good looking, and funny, and at least the anxiety was only in social situations. I'm 29. 9 years ago, my problems were FF/FB and the resultant social anxiety. 1 year ago my problems were FF/FB, social anxiety, compensatory sweating and gustatory sweating. Now, I am hopeless. I would kill to have my life back from a year ago, let alone 9 years ago.BEWARE AND BE INFORMED OF THIS DRUG AND ALL BENZODIAZEPINES! This drug is not recommended to be taken for more than 2 WEEKS MAXIMUM. And as far as addiction goes, taking it 4 days a week is no better than taking it every day b/c of the long half life of the drug. In my case, I use the word dependance. I never had any cravings to take the medication, but when I had to get off it, my brain and body couldn't function properly.
Two weeks maximum. And this is supposed to be permanent for me o_0. Let's just hope that that is a very extreme reaction :oS.
Anyways .. That's all my news ..
